End of the Year Update

I know I haven’t posted an update in awhile and I’ll tell you why because the Lord has told me too. These past few months, really the past year, but especially the past few months have been a time of temptation and testing and trials and change. Temptation like I’ve never experienced. I felt like I was on literally on fire at multiple points, like I would snap and break at any moment. The Lord continues to reveal things to me that need to change and that I need to lay down. He revealed to me just what following Him looks like and gave me understanding of somethings that I struggled to have before. Reminded me it’s not about me but Him, His will, what He’s called me to do. That His will won’t always line up with what I want to do, even if those things might seem good.

A lot of moments hidden in the quiet. There have been moments that I’ve felt an extreme amount of pressure, uncomfortable feelings surfaced, and things revealed that I don’t even like to acknowledge that were still in my heart or I didn’t realize were ever there, messups, moments that I was tempted to quit and forced to look at the choice I had before me: to go my own way or continue in the way of the Lord. Which is the choice we all have, for salvation and for living. Are we going to live in dependence on Him or are we going to depend on ourselves? Is our Faith in Christ and what He did at the Cross or our own self? I know this is something He needed me to understand and grab ahold of, as we all do.

I know the Lord has allowed many things to happen to make this choice of what I’m going to do with my life and others that connect, and to allow me to make a choice and also reveal the need for dependence on Him, for everything. All the while teaching me how to depend on Him for everything. That it’s truly not by what I do but what I believe and put my Faith in. Its very easy to go from depending on Christ to depending on self. Trusting Him for salvation but not for direction or decision making. All it takes is one moment and I’ve had a lot of back and forth at times, realizing or questioning at times and sometimes without realizing my dependence on self. I’m so thankful He doesn’t give up on us despite our foolishness and mistakes we make and our misunderstandings and lack of trust and Faith. I’m so thankful He’s provided a way to live this life here on Earth.

I don’t understand why but I’m thankful and humbled and honored that this is the calling the Lord has given me. This is something I know cannot be done without Him, I mean I can’t even walk up stairs without Him. I’ve learned I need Him in every single moment, in every single decision, every breath.

I don’t know what the next year looks like and I don’t want to get ahead of the Lord as that’s what I almost did this year and immediately was stopped and praise God for that. I didn’t want to get ahead of the Lord but I wanted it to happen fast and to be able to help people now but that’s not what the plans were and the Lord needed time to work things in me as He prepares me for this. There are things I need to understand and things He has and will have to deal with my heart on. However, I know the Lord will provide a way and He will show me when and as I’m ready.

In the meantime, I’m still preparing things and writing and seeking Him on what and how to do things. I still need prayer as I always will. I’m still asking for support financially as you feel led as things will still need to be purchased and when the direction is given, needs will need to be met. From food, to hygiene, to household items, to fees for identification documents, and things in between. A lot of people who come from a life of addiction and possible homelessness come into where they find shelter with nothing and this requires one to start from scratch. If you have a desire to help, this is how you can and I know I’ll need volunteers once we get started in a physical location but that will come later. Seek the Lord on how you can help. I appreciate so much, from the bottom of my heart, those who have supported this through prayer and finances throughout this past year. I ask and pray that you will help me carry out this vision from the Lord and ask that you continue to pray for me and for the women who will come and for doors to be open and answers to be given. The Lord already knows. Thank you again and may the Lord bless you!

And Merry Christmas and Happy New Year ❤️

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